Locked Doors in the hall

As I am walking through the halls today, I found that most doors are closed. It confused me a lot because only a couple weeks before, everyone’s doors were open and I could talk to everyone. My door is open almost all the time, semi because it smells like trash and I need it to air out, but also because I am fine with people coming into our room and saying hi. With all these people closing their doors though, I feel as though I am like desperate and need friends because I feel like a loner, so sometimes I close the door to make myself feel better because sometimes, I like the smell of trash, or because I am naked, but that’s another story. I think it’s super dumb that people close their doors because ok, if your naked, you should put a sign up that says, “I’m Naked” so that I do not feel like you are just trying to ignore me because that makes me sad and then I go to my room and cry, so really, everyone should just have signs on their door that says what they are doing like sleeping, or out in class, or changing, or even that you are trying to ignore people because you don’t want to talk to them, I am totally fine with that too because at least your being honest about it and not just closing and locking your door. I mean on my hall there are creepers, like this guy, I cannot say his name because I am online, but he goes up to people, he is 21 and he asks if they want alcohol and then when they can’t pay he says stuff like, “Money is not the only payment.” Like what the Crap (I would say the F word, this is for English class so I can’t) is that the only reason why you don’t live off campus? Every one of your peers pretty much are off campus, why do you have to creep on us freshman when you can creep on older people? Hm? I don’t know it makes me angry so sometimes I pick fights because he is pretty small, it never gets physical though because I make him feel stupid, like the time I wore a short skirt and he dry raped me in the hall. It was pretty much the worst day of my life, and I almost cried, not really, but it sucked, he came up to my room and then we started arguing and he said, do you want me to actually rape you? That really pissed me off, because first of all, if I said yes it wouldn’t be rape, and second of all are you really that down to rape some random guy? Like AH! But yea anyways, it’s probably him that made people close and lock their doors, but still I like going into people’s rooms and talking to them because talking is fun and I have pretty girls in my hall and so I can talk to them and look at their pretty eyes because their eyes are pretty, like mine when they were green when I had green contacts, I am pretty with green eyes, I should get surgery. But, yea maybe the girls would leave their doors open if I had green eyes because I would be prettier and they will like me coming in more than they want Jason leaving because girls do like attractive men, and although I don’t think I am that attractive, I still think that I am more attractive than how creepy Jason is, even though he is pretty creepy, so psych, I don’t think that because that is conceited and I try not to be conceited because people don’t like that, unless they like the confident type, which some people do like, but I wouldn’t like that in myself, so yea. So really, everyone should open their doors because if not, I will be conceited and then I won’t like myself and then it would make me sad and then maybe I would get more friends, but that would be fake and annoying and more people would hate me than people hate me now so it wouldn’t be worth it. So yea, but now that I think about it, it might be because they are studying, or because when me and my roommate make songs it’s too loud so they close the door, because I do sing really really loud. Singing loud makes me really happy though, so they should just be quiet and deal with it and have their doors open because if they do, they will hear very beautiful music because I make beautiful music always. Like one night me and my roommate stayed up all night just making covers to rap songs, on Thursday. We made a cover to Make Her Say by Kid Cudi, and it was pretty pitchy because I hate recording, but it is on Facebook, and some people really liked it, so yea. We also did a Got Money one, and it was tight not recorded like in my brain, but not in my brain it sounded bad. Anyways, another thing that grinds my gears is when people are really loud outside your door because they just want to. Like I am loud a lot but I do for like 2 seconds to get people attention, but when people just talk and talk and talk outside of your door because they just don’t know what they are doing, and they are talking about stupid stuff like the infant mortality rate that has nothing to do with anything unless you work at a morgue, then your fine and then you can talk about that, but when people are yelling down the halls like WHAT IS THE INFANT MORTALITY RATE OF THE UNITED STATES, I yell at them and tell them that it will be 2 more because you scream like babies, so yea that’s it with my ranting good bye.