Farmville and Life

So, Farmville. Lots of people play it and why? No one knows. All you do is plow land, plant crops buy animals, harvest plants, harvest trees, adopt animals, help neighbors, make money, collect milk, decorate your farm, make a person, win ribbons, gain levels, add friends as neighbors and most importantly even if you are bored, you can stay bored. Being bored is lame, and since everyone does not want to be lame, they try to not be lame by doing stuff that they think will make them not bored. Some people do drugs; others play a synonym, Farmville. Farmville is an epidemic like heroin, once you start playing you can’t stop, like heroin, usually if you start once, you are addicted and it’s very hard to not do it anymore. For Farmville, there is a button where you can just delete the application, but that application gets really hard to delete because you work so hard on your farm and then you don’t want to lose it so you don’t push it and you still stay addicted. It makes it even worse because it’s on Facebook which as well is addicting and if one goes on Facebook for a while, they will see news feeds that say that there are other people playing Farmville and people see that and their like “my God, Farmville, everyone is playing” so more people start playing then the world becomes addicted and then the world just is Farmville, and then in Farmville they will make facebook, and then that facebook will have Farmville and then everything will be crazy and everyone will just have multiple lives and whoever has the highest level is the best in the world and will think to be the most distinguished person when really they haven’t done anything at all. If Farmville actually made food for people, I would slightly understand the addiction, but really it’s possibly the stupidest thing ever, you really don’t do shit and it only shows the good of farming so there is not actually hard work for plowing or picking up cow shit or getting sun burnt, and when you help out your neighbors you do not actually do a task, you just click a button and you pull the weeds out of their whole farm, or scare all the crows away. In real life, one would get calluses from plowing or get tired from running around scaring crows and they would get frustrated. So maybe if Farmville took more work, then it would be not only more realistic, then it will also maybe more fun. Also, one big thing that probably makes people addicted is the time that one has to wait for their crops to grow, some crops take a couple days, so one has to go around waiting for these crops to grow. Usually these crops take a season, however, in Farmville, takes a day or two or three. Therefore Farmville is too ridiculous, however I still play a lot and its really addicting and I don’t know why I just wanted to keep ranting, but it makes me feel good being a hypocrite because one has to be a hypocrite to try to understand their lives. For example, if I wanted to know why I believe about God, I should question my belief and say why someone would not believe in him to understand why I believe in him so that I could answer to myself why I believe in God. So therefore the reason why I am still addicted to Farmville is just because it is something to do, it’s a good conversation starter, and also its fun having a poop load of gold for no reason and have something to make me feel accomplished since I am failing college it makes me feel that I am a great person even though I’m probably not even though I think that I am, always. Not trying to be not humble, but sometimes I feel I’m great, but really I know I’m not. I feel as though people think that I am a cocky mother fucker, but really I only say some things because I am insecure with myself. Being insecure, I look at people automatically thinking that they judge me, maybe because I’m easy to be judged, but also because I just feel like I get vibes from people and it sucks, vibes suck, I get good ones, bad ones, angry ones, sad ones, since I get these vibes I usually feel really bad and I usually get angry and cry and then go to bed because I now sleep a lot because I don’t know what to do for life. Life is such a hard thing to use, one can use it for good, one can waste it, like I am sleeping and not caring about classes. I mean technically, I am wasting my life going to classes where instead I could be going out in the world working and helping less fortunate people, but I’m not because as I said, I’m selfish and an asshole, and although I love helping people, it would be hard for me to stay somewhere for a year to help them for I would get lonely. Like in college, even though I’m with people I know, I still feel lonely, I don’t feel as though I really have friends, except for one person, and to be honest I just feel dumb. I feel as though everyone here is smarter than me, because probably they are, everyone has better social skills than me, everyone is better looking than me, and that everyone knows how to study more than me. Today I kept hearing about how people just studied for 8 hours plus and I thought about it, I don’t know how to study. I can’t study for more than 30 minutes without wanting to gauge my eyes out, college sucks, I don’t want to be in it anymore. But it’s ok, because it’s the norm. If I don’t stay in college I will be judged as a drop out and that’s not good. So I will stay, just so that I don’t get judged.